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I’m going to start by saying that I have posted this in the Family section but I got no responses so I’m posting it here because I am pregnant and it has something to do with my being pregnant and my first pregnancy amongst other things. I feel like a lot of you fellow pregnant women and Mothers would understand more than anybody else.

I would really appreciate no rude answers on "it’s in the wrong section blah blah blah" If you have no interest in being any help then don’t waste your time reading and writing a response and don’t waste my time reading rude answers.

Alright so here’s the deal. My Mom was abusive and an alcoholic my whole life. I grew up being beaten because I didn’t clean something as well as it could have been or over something so small and insignificant. I would go to school all the time with bruises and cuts. She was verbally abusive too. Always putting me down, calling me the nastiest names you could ever think of. I was planning on moving out when I was 18 but she ended up kicking me out about a week before my 18th birthday because she didn’t approve of the guy Lance I was dating. I moved in with him because I had nowhere else to go. My Mother and I stopped speaking after that. Around the beginning of December my Mother and I started talking again which caused problem between Lance and I so we fought and broke up. I moved back in with her. Lance and I continued talking and on December 22nd we found out I was pregnant. I didn’t tell my Mother because she’d freak out. I was going to wait until after the first trimester to make sure I didn’t lose the baby. On Christmas Eve she ended up getting drunk at a friends house we were at and started threatening to kill my cat and ripped some of my hair out so I went back to her house got my cat and when back to Lances for fear of her actually hurting my cat or me! She ended up throwing all my stuff into the driveway at 3AM Christmas morning so we went and got it all and I was back at Lances. She had forgotten some of my stuff so I had to go back in the middle of January to get it or she was "going to burn it all" she ended up asking if I was pregnant and I told her. She offered me her house, ,000 and a brand new car if I would abort the baby. Which I would never do! I left and didn’t talk to her again until she came crawling back to me in April and said she’d be different. I believed her, took my job back working for her at her restaurant. I was over at her house for dinner the night before my gender sonogram and as expected she got drunk again and started saying if it was a boy she was "going to drown it in the pool and bury it in the backyard" I was PISSED so I left and didn’t talk to her again. It ended up being a boy too. The guy Lance she didn’t like that I was dating ended up proposing to me and we got married in May. Then a week before I was scheduled to be induced to have my baby she came crawling back again saying she wanted to be there for me and wanted to be in my Son’s life. I accepted her again because I’m an idiot. We were doing just fine up until Christmas again. There was a really bad snowstorm coming and my Husband and I stayed at his Mothers house (who lives right about 2 minutes away from my Mom) so that we could even make to either of our parents house. The storm hit us really bad and it took us 4 1/2 hours to dig out of the snow and get to her place. We got there at 3PM and stayed until 8:30PM. We told her we wanted to leave so we could spend a little time with just Lance, our Son, and I since it was our first Christmas. She went crazy saying how my life is shitty, she would be sorry to be me, and that as soon as Lance and I get divorced she’ll be there to have me all to herself again. I was determined to never talk to her again after what she said. In front of Lance too! A few days ago she called me saying that I was the mean one for waving Caden under their nose to get what I want then once I got it I just took him away from them. I have NEVER NEVER NEVER used my Son for anything except to get out of Jury Duty once, but who wouldn’t do that =P Either way I was so hurt that she said that to me, then she said she was canceling my cell phone. I got texts from her last night saying that she knows I’m pregnant again(which I am and wasn’t planning on telling her after the whole incidence last time. I feel that if she’s not going to be happy for me she doesn’t deserve to know) but she said that and that she’ll always be there for me and my children, that she hates Lance and will never accept him or have anything to do with him and was begging for me to be friends with her and that she can be more help than harm. I’m at a loss of what to do. I feel like an abused dog and she expects me to keep coming back to her. I was raised to just get over it and that’s what I’ve always done. Even though she did such horrible things to me when I was younger I still love my Mom and want her in my life. I just don’t think my relationship c
Hahaha it cut me off… Anyways.

I just don’t think my relationship can handle anymore of her and I don’t know if I can emotionally handle another attack from her. Plus my Son doesn’t need to go over there and here bad things about his Father or see his Grandmother treat HIS Mother the way she has treated me, but I can’t help but miss her. It’s f-ed up I know but I can’t help but still want my Mother.
I’m sorry this is so long…

I just don’t know what to do and I know ultimately it’s up to me but I just wanted a 3rd parties opinion on the situation. What you guys would personally do or if you had any advice…

Thank you for taking the time to read my novel and if you have any questions, if something doesn’t make sense, or if I left something out feel free to ask it in your question and I will be more than happy to reply and clear it up.
Thank you. You all have been so nice and have been telling me what I already new but just needed to hear from someone who isn’t involved in the situation.

I do love my Husband very much and I don’t want anything to happen to us. We currently are seeing a Marriage Counselor to help us cope with all of this because like I said it has had a huge strain on our relationship.

For the woman who asked. I forgot to remember your name to put in on here, but you asked about Lances Mother and if I had any Grandmothers. I do not have any Grandparents at all. They have all passed away and as for Lance’s Mom she and I do get along. There are a few things that bother me about her but as in any family that’s normal. She has been wonderful. She’s so optimistic and always wants the best results. She is trying her hardest to fill the hole I have from my own and to be the best Grandmother she can be.

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There was this girl I was talking to, she seemed really cool. We had a good on going discussion for about two weeks. She is long distance, let me state I do not want a long distance relationship, they don’t work for the most part. However. I added her the other day, she accepted my request but hasn’t spoke to me since. I don’t even really use myspace anymore, I’m more of a facebook person but this has happened to me about 2 times before, where a girl you meet enjoys talking to you, then adds you on facebook or myspace and just stops talking to you. Like I said while I’m not looking for a long distance relationship, it makes me question myself and hurts my self confidence. I have alopecia(hair loss) so maybe that doesn’t help. Ehh, whatever, when things like this happen to you, what do you do to boost your self confidence and not bring yourself down?

Do you think I am better off not talking to any women I met online even as friends? I feel like I have much better luck talking to girls in person, maybe because they can see the real me.

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There was this girl I was talking to, she seemed really cool. We had a good on going discussion for about two weeks. She is long distance, let me state I do not want a long distance relationship, they don’t work for the most part. However. I added her the other day, she accepted my request but hasn’t spoke to me since. I don’t even really use myspace anymore, I’m more of a facebook person but this has happened to me about 2 times before, where a girl you meet enjoys talking to you, then adds you on facebook or myspace and just stops talking to you. Like I said while I’m not looking for a long distance relationship, it makes me question myself and hurts my self confidence. I have alopecia(hair loss) so maybe that doesn’t help. Ehh, whatever, when things like this happen to you, what do you do to boost your self confidence and not bring yourself down?

Do you think I am better off not talking to any women I met online even as friends? I feel like I have much better luck talking to girls in person, maybe because they can see the real me.

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I have a major issue with my looks. I’m 6′3", broad shouldered, around 235, and bald. Most people don’t understand why I hate this, and I rarely tell them the real reason.

I hate how I look because it’s entirely masculine. I hate that I’m taller than most people, I resent the fact that I started losing my hair at age 17, and that while I’m not in super shape, it’s not uncommon for someone (often just some panhandler buttering me up for money) to ask if I played football or call me "Big man". In my darker times, I refer to myself as being "ugly" although I know it’s not true….I’m just the opposite of what I want to be.

I’m posting pics just to show the contrast between who I am and who I wish I could be.

http://s385.photobucket.com/albums/oo296/curseofdolkite/

My GI problem is not a sexual issue…I don’t desire to have female organs and I’m heterosexual. I admit that in a perfect world, I’d rather be female. However, that’s obviously not going to happen, so I’m willing (like it matters) to compromise if I could just not be seen as an overtly masculine guy, I’m just frustrated because I know there is no way I’m ever going to be seen as anything but a masculine guy, the opposite of what I want. I could even deal with being male if I wasn’t so overtly masculine and the (few) women I attracted weren’t looking for the sort of big, strong, protective "manly man" type. I know they didn’t realize how their comments affected me, but hearing a female say things like "I love how small I feel next to you" were heartbreaking for me because I took it the way a female would….most females don’t want to be seen as big and burly.

I tried to counteract this by dating girls who were taller or larger…the last two were 6′5" and 6′2" (around 250 lbs). This, however, backfired…the supertall one loved having someone who made her look smaller and could dominate her in bed; the big one loved that I could pick her up (with difficulty) and, worse, told me she was attracted to me partially because I reminded her of her father. Now ask me why I don’t go out on more dates…

I’m really at a loss here. I mean, I care about how I look and yet I’m unmotivated even to get in shape and do the best I can with what I’ve been given because I don’t want to seem like I actively am striving to fulfill that big tough bald bouncer type image that’s so popular with men now.

Anyway, I don’t know if this answer is going to inspire a lot of rude comments or if anyone will even have anything meaningful to say beyond token responses like "Get therapy" or "Stop caring what you look like".

Also, PLEASE read my question. Some people click on the link to my pic and then write "What’s the big deal, you’re not ugly" or "Lots of girls dig big guys". My question is not "Am I good looking?", it’s how do I cope with having a body that’s the exact opposite of what I wish I could be.

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